Tuesday, 31 May 2011
May Film Round-up!
- Hanna
- Insidious
- Attack the Block
- Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides
Omnomnom, Jack Sparrow... *___*
Friday, 27 May 2011
Money, thou art a heartless bitch
I am currently very jealous of my dear Sally Slander. We were talking about circuses the other night after she went to go and see one, and it's gotten me all hyped up again about the subject.
In merry old England, down in London, you can do an actual degree in circus arts. It's just amazing. If I could, I would go and do it. But....
In merry old England, down in London, you can do an actual degree in circus arts. It's just amazing. If I could, I would go and do it. But....
- Living in London is damn expensive.
- Degrees are damn expensive.
- I found out about this one after I started my current degree, so I couldn't get funding for all two/three years.
- Degrees are more expensive if you already have one
- Degrees are even more expensive now that our government is, excuse my language, fucking ridiculous.
Over in Finland, they don't have the godawful idea that you have to sell your soul if you want to learn something. As far as I'm aware, you don't have to pay anything, just your own living costs.
I am jealous of her, over in Finland, with her not-shit government and 'I think I'll go and learn whatever'. And she can. She could just go and do it.
But me? I'm stuck here on this rock that used to be the most powerful country in the world, unable to do anything because the government keeps running out of money by being a yes-man to the USA.
I'm having my dreams crushed because of money. Part of me wants me to have failed second year so I'd have two years of funding left and be able to do the FdA in Circus Arts.
Besides, what use is a degree in which you've specialised in costume if you want to be a circus freak?
I have a year left on that degree. Maybe something will magically appear by the time I've finished.
If not, I'll just have to resign to my fate of being a lowly, unexciting costumier (and hell, even getting a job in that field is unlikely).
Or run away to Finland.
Don't get me wrong, I do love making costumes. I'd be so thrilled if I got a proper costuming job. If someone offered me work designing costumes for a film or something, I'd jump at the chance. The only problem is this.
I have been told that I am a 'natural performer'. I am, act and look ridiculous. I over gesture when I want to be mock-dramatic. I can slip into character in an instant.
The only problem with that is that I lack confidence in myself. But that's fixable, I'm sure.
But yes, the first problem. With that comes the inability to be able to stand the monotony of your every day job. I'd go mad if I had to sit in an office all day or answer phones, or even just stand at a checkout and have to listen to the endless 'bip...bip...bip...' as things got their barcodes read.
Yes, 'costumier' is not that, It's not that at all.
My heart is in the creation of costumes, of props, of design, but my soul belongs to the circus.
Sunday, 8 May 2011
Lovesong
On Friday, I was sitting in the Teesside University SU with people from the cast and crew of Return to the Forbidden Planet. We were having some food and drinks before going over to the main hall to set up for the show when the stage manager asked me a question.
"How do you cope?"
This came shortly after I was asked if I'd had a good time in Finland, and I'd told them about my plans to go back there and to Belgium.
It was quite a difficult question. The only answer I could give was "I have no idea."
Have you ever been sat alone in your house, bored, and thought "Oh, I'll go and see my girl/boy/whatever-friend", or wanted to go and watch a film with someone, or just simply wanted a hug?
Well, that's my everyday dilemma. I have to continue just sitting on my own.
It gets hard, of course it does, but it feels so amazing when you get to see your love after three months of waiting. I hear people whining because they haven't seen their whatever for three days. They'll never know the joy that I feel when I get to hold my dear Salla in my arms.
That is how I cope, I guess. Love keeps me strong.
Here's to you, sweetheart <3
"How do you cope?"
This came shortly after I was asked if I'd had a good time in Finland, and I'd told them about my plans to go back there and to Belgium.
It was quite a difficult question. The only answer I could give was "I have no idea."
Have you ever been sat alone in your house, bored, and thought "Oh, I'll go and see my girl/boy/whatever-friend", or wanted to go and watch a film with someone, or just simply wanted a hug?
Well, that's my everyday dilemma. I have to continue just sitting on my own.
It gets hard, of course it does, but it feels so amazing when you get to see your love after three months of waiting. I hear people whining because they haven't seen their whatever for three days. They'll never know the joy that I feel when I get to hold my dear Salla in my arms.
That is how I cope, I guess. Love keeps me strong.
Here's to you, sweetheart <3
Saturday, 30 April 2011
April Film Round-up!
- Sucker Punch
- Sucker Punch (in Helsinki)
- Arthur
- Thor
Say what you like about Sucker Punch; I loved it.
Yes, it was a little lacking, and yes, it could have been much better....
....but still....
YUM.
And the soundtrack?
Eargasm.
Friday, 29 April 2011
Mannequin Love
As you may know, I am an art student.
No, I don't throw paint around or sketch nudes or anything like that.
I design costumes.
Props, too, but I'm hoping to specialise in costume design.
The course BA(hons) is Entertainment Design Crafts, the place is Cleveland College of Art and Design. It's a nice little college up in the North East of England. Apparently, people don't expect us to be there, thinking that all the art colleges are in the south.
But yes.
Ents is a rather fun place. A couple of days ago, a few mannequins appeared out of one of the store rooms, perhaps. In bits.
Eventually, they were put together. Before that, however...
No, I don't throw paint around or sketch nudes or anything like that.
I design costumes.
Props, too, but I'm hoping to specialise in costume design.
The course BA(hons) is Entertainment Design Crafts, the place is Cleveland College of Art and Design. It's a nice little college up in the North East of England. Apparently, people don't expect us to be there, thinking that all the art colleges are in the south.
But yes.
Ents is a rather fun place. A couple of days ago, a few mannequins appeared out of one of the store rooms, perhaps. In bits.
Eventually, they were put together. Before that, however...
Well, would you have expected anything less?
Of course a disembodied arm is going to be having its way with a nude mannequin.
It's an art college.
Tuesday, 26 April 2011
Defying Gravity
[---Written during a flight from Helsinki to Manchester---]
I should be writing an essay right now (and, in fact, I am), but I want to write down my thoughts as they come to me. It's going to be a fairly long flight, so I don't want to forget them. I've been on the plane about 45 minutes and I've nearly eaten a whole bag of Missä X. It's a little upsetting as they are super tasty and I won't be able to get any more until I go back to Finland, which will be god knows when. Ok, yes, I have another four packets in my case, but that's not the point. To begin with, I was munching them down to distract myself, to try to stop myself from crying again. It's the most painful thing, leaving your love behind in another country. Of course, that's understandable, understandable. Yes, it's perfectly understandable...
Something has changed within me, something is not the same….
Ahh, Wicked...
I'm now over half way through this essay, and my stomach is a little sore. Not the organ itself, but my skin.
ARGH, WAX BURNS?
Serves me right, I guess. My back is tingling a bit too, but that is ever so lovely. Not especially looking forward to having to carry my college bag again, but I guess we're both in the same boat with that one!
71% done and I just want to sit and stare out of the window. It's a little difficult as my back isn't really agreeing with the twisting, and also it's dark out there and all I can see is the red flashing light at the end of the wing. It's nothing like when we took off from Helsinki-Vantaa airport when I could see the city below and waved goodbye to such a lovely country, or rather 'I'll see you soon.' There's no way I can stay away from there for too long. I just couldn't. Now now.
The plane is turning now and there's that slight disorienting feeling. I'm not sure where I am at all, but there was an announcement about putting up the drinks trays for landing. Can't be landing soon, it's only 21:30. That's English time. Feels like 23:30. I'm a little sleepy. I wonder how I'm going to be able to stay awake until 06:00 tomorrow to catch the megabus… Just keep writing, I guess. There's no way I can really fall asleep in the airport anyway. Would they even let me stay there all night? I'll just have to find out when it comes to that. Having to stay awake, though, means I have to write my essays since I'll have nothing else to do. Can't even go on the internet because it'll a) cost me money and b) kill my battery. Can't imagine that the airport would let me plug in my mac anywhere. Ho hum.
Oh, I'm so tired. This isn't fair.
Well, saying that, I should have wrote my essays before I went away to Finland, or even written more while I was there.
I did try to write while I was there, but I just wanted to be with Salla all the time, and writing an essay is, well… not being with her. Just writing that now is making me get all teary-eyed again. Oh, what am I going to be like tomorrow when people ask me about my trip?
I wonder if they sell iPods for a decent price at the airport….
Seatbelt sign is on, and we're going down.
Hello England.
Saturday, 2 April 2011
Red Pyramid Thing
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| The 'Portfolio Shot' |
One girl with a camera, one girl in a costume, one abandoned factory. Sounds like a photoshoot to me.
*crosses it off the list*
Two things in one week. I'm rather amazed.
- Get a degree in Entertainment Design Crafts
- Join the circus / Form my own troupe
- Follow a band/musician around the country
Go to a music festival- Visit America
- Go on a road trip
- See Insects vs. Robots
- Become well known for something
Perform on stage- Have an unusual pet
- Travel the world
- Go to Burning Man
See 50 films at the cinema in a yearBe in a photoshoot- Be an extra in something
- Get a job
- Move out of parents house
- Be in a Nerf War
Sell something I’ve made- Climb a mountain
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